I see death every time I close my eyes...
I am cursed to not ever sleep...
All I want is one second of peace...
My soul is tired...
It cannot stay like this any longer...

Should I..?
Should I not..?
I can't resist myself.

I'm in love with the picture I took with Path.

It's a symbol.
A few will understand, but most won't.
This is who I am.

Do I dare, doing the taboo?

I want a girlfriend. I don't know why, I just want one so bad.
I've never felt this lonely before. I've been just fine being single. But now, I really need someone to love.
I'm tired of being so alone. All my life I've been caged. I want to be free, I want to find someone I could love. And it would be nice if they could return my love.
It never was easy for me to fall in love, that's why I am always alone. All the people I like, all the guys I like are either too old, taken, or gay.
Yes, now I want a girlfriend. Maybe I'm just tired of being not allowed to love the guys i like. I could make them love me, but isn't that... wrong?
I want a girl I could give all my love and my soul to. I need her to give meaning to my life. I've been living like a zombie for the past months. It feels empty, like my life has no purpose at all.
I'm going more and more to my lesbian side, I guess. I have less and less interest in guys. I don't know why.
I just need somebody to love.

I'm sleepy, but I don't want to sleep.
It has been more than a week. It still feels wrong.
I wish I could close my eyes and just forget about everything.
I don't want to live like this.

I don't love him. How many times do i have to say that to myself?
I do not want his love, I do not want his attention. All I want is his body.
I'm lusting for him.
Such a dirty mind I have.
I wish i could just forget.